Oh My GOD!!
Something is going on and it’s something really good! It is such a long time ago I felt happy like this – and gosh it’s a nice feeling! I almost don’t believe it – I am going to embrace it and hold on to it for as long as I can.
It’s something which is really hard for me! When I’m out teaching I’m comfortable, confident and trust myself – but take that environment away from me and I want to just go and hide!
Writing it here, makes it even more real! And that’s fine!
We all deserve to be happy and enjoy what we do and who we are and also the feelings we are experiencing, they’re all welcomed, even if they’re positive! ( I’m convinced you all think I’m nuts at this point! But honest to God – positivity is something I don’t often let in – it is a working progress! )
So anyway! My horse has been on the Calming Powder for about 5 days now and then I give her a cookie before riding and it’s like someone has gone and swapped my horse out for a new one! It is absolutely amazing the difference in her. I am over the moon!
Later today my vlog will hopefully be out – so excited can’t wait to share it with you!