Motivation dip – it all started with a bang

Heeeeey!

Well – gotta be honest with you, my motivation is a little low at the moment and here’s why:

Let’s rewind the clock

When I was 15, I was in a car accident, not a very bad one, but circumstances made me choose, let’s say not the smartest decisions – I didn’t have it checked out straight away. Weekend went by and I felt more in pain and unwell, on the monday morning we went to the doctors: whiplash, back & neck.

You’re not allowed to ride

Yeah, try telling that to a dedicated horse crazy teenager. So I snuck my hat out without my dad knowing it and went to a friends house, I was gonna ride!

Mounted the horse, started walking away. Must’ve been on 10/15 min tops and my head felt like it was going to explode, I felt dizzy, nauseous & my neck was hurting SO BAD. I jumped off the horse, took my hat off and sat down.

You’re not allowed to ride

Echoed in my head – I couldn’t ride. 6 months I think it took until I was back in the saddle – struggling every day with everything I did where my neck wasn’t supported.

I hated every minute of it.

Fast forward one year

I’m now in “gymnasium” studying – horses. Still struggling but getting better and stronger, though sitting trot was very painful – sometimes not possible. We had loads of different classes, one of them was learning to drive tractors. We got paired up 2 per tractor. My friend was driving, not fast 10/15kmh maybe. She crashed in a tree and this put a significant bigger strain again on my already weakened neck. I went to the doctors.

They didn’t say I couldn’t ride this time, they said:

Something is wrong here, what do you suggest we do?

I was scared. Upset. Lost. I went to the professionals to get help – they suspected something is not right and did nothing?

“Give me some painkillers and let me out of here

Was my panicked response – and that is what happened.

Fast forward til now

So this is where my, what it feels like, never ending battle with pain started. Lately something has flared up.

  • It makes me tired.
  • It makes it difficult to breath.
  • It makes me sad.
  • It brings back bad memories.
  • It makes me not sleep well.
  • It makes me feel exhausted.
  • It ruins my riding.

THIS IS WHAT DEMOTIVATES ME. One of my inner demons.

I had a deep tissue massage on Friday – I am still very sore but I can feel how much it has helped my body. I need to start prioritising myself because if I don’t, I don’t have the ability to do what I love: My Horses❤ And without my horses – I’m incomplete.

Keep on fighting everyone! Take care of yourself – it is important!

I can feel how this is tearing on my mentality and it needs addressing – maybe sharing it with you guy’s can help me?

All the best,

Ancha XO

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Author: Take The Reins Equestrian Training

Freelance instructor and rider working in the equine industry in Norway and the UK. with a dream of inspiring people along their journeys❤

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